I have never been the kind of person who is really decisive. I flip flop. Thank goodness most waiters and waitresses have been very patient with me. Though it is much easier to pick from a menu as opposed to deciding things like where you want to go to school and what you want to do with your life. Those sorts of decisions have always tripped me up. One minute I know exactly which direction I am going in and the next I do not know. This has specifically been my problem over the last couple of weeks. Since I am on summer vacation there has been lots of time to think and work on my writing projects. One of which is a children's book I have been trying to self-publish.
Every other day I waiver as to whether or not I actually want to publish it. Yes. No. Yes. No. And so forth. I think you catch my drift. Anyways I guess the main concern is whether or not anyone will like it. I do. Then I don't. Then I do. Then I don't. (You catch my drift again?)
It is one of the many frightening things about being a writer. It has definitely been scary to stand up in a classroom full of people the last couple of semesters and share my work. Here's the deal though: not everyone will like your work. I don't like everything I read or hear and that's the way it is. Yet there is something so personal about putting out a work that you have spent so much time on. In a way it's a little piece of yourself that you are giving away to the world. It is hard. It is scary. It is completely worth it. Deep down I know this and yet I am still scared. I think in a way that is all part of the fun. If it wasn't hard or scary then it wouldn't be as fun or as rewarding.
My mom pointed out to me the other day the obvious: look around. If you go the bookstores you will find shelves filled with titles. They did it and you can too.
This is true, very true. I'm sure that most of these authors had the same fears I have right now. That doesn't make it any less taunting. I keep hearing, though, about how we have one life to live and we should take every opportunity we get. This is another one of those times.
I have the same feeling when it comes to this blog. However, whenever I see all the different kinds of readers I get from around the world it all feels very worth it. So, thank you. :)
